A little about me before I begin

I sat down today with the intent to start the series on being a woman who follows God, her focus on pleasing God but nothing seemed to come out. I would start typing but I didn't like what I was reading. I then felt like I should share a little about me. I don't know why but that is what this post is going to be about. I will try not to make this too long or too boring.
I don't want to start with my birth but I will start with when I was a child. My parents divorced when I was almost 2 so my time was split between 3 or 4 houses (my grandparents did a lot of watching me too). I grew up around a few strong women with strong ideas. I wasn't really around anyone who homeschooled or a mom who was a keeper at home. I grew up thinking that I need a man but didn't think that I needed to be married. I also wasn't going to let any man "rule" me or tell me what to do. If my boyfriend/husband didn't agree with me, too bad. Sometimes I followed exactly what I have said and a few other times I ended up being slapped around a time or two and even apologizing for "causing" it. My past is interesting to say the least.
My dh and I accepted Christ as our savior when he wad 22 and I was 21. I still held my beliefs from above and didn't change overnight, not even close. I started hearing foreign ideas to me but didn't pay too much attention. It has taken me years to really begin to hear and change. Where do the "ideas" that I have been wrong all these years come from? The Bible. It took years of God working on me and not giving up on me to change. I still have a lot more growing to do but who I was and who I am now are very, very different. The Lord has patiently worked on me and I am who I am now because of the Lord. I am so thankful he isn't like me. I would have given up years ago.
Being a Christian and a woman who is married means that a large part of our walk will involve serving our husbands but that doesn't mean that is all. There are so many areas of our walk that we need to work on. I am not a woman who has arrived, cont rare to that, I have a long way to go. I am not writing this because I am this great and wonderful all-knowing person, I am a woman who wants to please God. I have been feeling a tug and hearing a whisper that I need to write something along these lines. To be honest, I didn't want to. I have been fighting it. One of the reasons is because I have a huge fear of rejection. I kept saying,"What if no one likes what I share?" "What if no one wants to read it?" There were more excuses but they boiled down to me not doing what the Holy Spirit was impressing upon me to do. Whether or not what I write is read or even liked isn't the point and I realize that now.
I praise God for everything that he has done in my life. I pray that this series does bless someone but most importantly I hope that God is exalted and glorified through this.